No, you didn’t miss something. I did not post a Reflection on day 10. Some days are so full that you cannot squeeze one more thing into it. Yesterday was one of those. Today I was able to get to the task, and here goes:
The sun broke over the eastern horizon with an almost summertime brilliance today. I know this because even though it was a Saturday morning I was awake at my usual 5 AM. I could not go back to sleep and so tried my favorite method for catching a few more winks. I stretched out on the living room sofa and plugged in an old black and white science fiction movie from the 1950’s, closed my eyes and tried to imagine the scenes from the dialogue. This is a strategy that works nearly all of the time.
No dice today, so I gave up at about seven and began to read Joshua Ryan Butler’s “Skeletons In God’s Closet”. By nine I was finished, my wife was stirring, and it was clearly time for some kitchen action. Soon we were feasting on bacon, potatoes andchard, and eggs for me, and as we ate I could only stare out of the window at the deep blue sky and sparkling sunlight that washed the landscape that spread out before us. I knew that this was a day to be outside, and after cleaning up I put on my gardening shoes and grabbed my shovel, hoe, foam kneeling pad and an old Craftsman screwdriver with the business end rounded off into an oval shape by the decades that I have used it exclusively as a weeding tool.
Soon I was kneeling in one of my raised beds pulling weeds. The soil is wet and loose, and the roots came up with relative ease in most cases. In other cases I had to work just a little bit harder. In no time at all I had a rhythm going and the weeds were literally flying into and old trash can that I have kept for just that purpose.
While I was thusly engaged, face to the dirt and fingers actually in the soil, I remembered the Lent project of spending more purposeful thought and time in the things of God. My mind had been racing from subject to subject; work and its complexities, plans for the spring, projects which needed to be completed at home, and so on. Now I tried to corral my mind and focus it on God and His ways, and it was not easy.
I think that if I had been born in these times I would have been saddled with the diagnosis of ADD. I have always had a struggle concentrating on one thing only for any length of time, and today was no exception. Eventually however I did manage to get my thoughts flying in formation, and this is what I think God told me today.
The dirt the earth, for me, is a reset button. As the screwdriver blade rooted out tenacious weeds and as the shovel head bit deep into the wet soil I was reminded that the soil is what God made my ancestor Adam out of and soil is what we all will eventually return to, except for Jesus, Enoch, Elijah and V.I. Lenin. I am not at all sure how they keep that latter guy looking so fresh; seems like some sort of dark art to me.
Anyway, all of the rest of us have dirt in our futures, and as I worked in that dirt today, especially with an eye to coaxing vegetables out of it that would cost me a pretty penny at Whole Foods, I reflected on how God has given us the tools and now we just have to squeeze our sustenance out of the soil. Even more than that, I felt a weird sort of kinship with the soil. Yeah, I know: “Tree Hugger Gone Wild”. It’s not like that. I don’t think of that dirt clod as my cousin. I cannot help but reflect though that we we share the same creator, and that my loving work with the soil will be responded to by an outpouring of sweet, healthy organic and cheap vegetables which will nourish my body as well as my soul. This is a blessing indeed.
What also struck me was the permanence and stability of the soil. I have had that dirt back there for at least fifteen years. I know that dirt well because I carried all twenty cubic yards or so of it back there one wheelbarrow load at a time. A walking path is the only access that I have to my back yard. I have no idea where that dirt came from either; it could have come from the Love Canal for all I know or Hanford, which would be more likely.
But every year I return to that soil in the spring and turn under by hand the cover crop that grew over winter and fixed either nitrogen or potassium in its roots, and also turn under the compost that I have been cooking since the previous spring. Several overpriced bags of compost from Shorty’s Garden Center also find their way into the beds that I prepare for my cold weather crop that I begin my garden with, and then the tomatoes and cucumbers, onions and carrots and green beans that are the crown jewels of my summer and fall dining room table.
I tend this garden the way that God tends me. I have to have my weeds pulled daily, and some are rooted deep and require a sharp metal point at times to get the job done. I am good with producing manure. But God takes that manure, which would burn and kill my soul garden the way that fresh chicken or steer manure would burn my vegetable garden, and he cures it, composts it, and when it is ready He uses it to produce fruit in my own life. Pests invade my garden and I plant flowers which draw insects that prey on those pests. In like manner, God plants human flowers in my life which strengthen me to resist the nasty, Screwtapesque pests that would challenge my soul in its relation to the Gardener.
For many it would seem that the garden is a metaphor for my relationship with God, but for me it is deeper than that. The garden IS my relationship with God in microcosm. As long as I am able to I will spend the warm – more or less – months of the year out there relating to God in my own way. I hope and pray that all of you find your own “garden” and allow God to nurture you through it.